I spent a lot of time trying to work out what to do this evening. I had a few options. Parties, gatherings, fireworks. The problem with New Years Eve is that it's always so full of expectation of having an excellent night. And sometimes it is excellent but sometimes it's a real disappointment. Usually though, it has to do with expectations. If things go better than you expect, your NYE rocks. If they don't, it doesn't. If you want a quiet one and it's not quiet enough, or it's too quiet, your NYE sucks. If you want an awesome night out at a party or on the harbour but your friends are less fun than you hoped or your friends are having heaps of fun but they are somewhere else, you're let down.
Tomorrow my house mates come home. I've had the house to myself the past few days and it's been great. I've done a lot of sitting around, watching DVDs, sleeping and playing Xbox. I figured, I can just do more of that tonight. And it'll probably be exactly what I expect. The company probably won't do anything surprising, and I really do love having the house to myself. Expectations won't let me down.
So that's what I'm doing. I've watched a DVD, eaten butter chicken, read my Bible and prayed. Now I'm blogging (obviously), I might read soon, watch a DVD, who knows. I know it all sounds old and dull but so far it's been fun. I'm on holidays, so I'm gonna do what I want, and this is great.
On Wednesday I was talking to Lesley about what she was doing and she said she might just stay home. At the time the idea sounded appalling. However, it grew on me. Not that I don't like going out. But I don't like being let down, and for a night so full of expectation as NYE, I'm going to expect nothing, do not much, and probably come out on top. On the other hand, the flat could burn down, I could have a terrible accident and have my arm amputated by the DVD player and then the New Year's Eve will be a let down. So far, however, it's going well. Thanks Lesley.
Off Wale's album, "Attention Deficit". "SHADE" feat Chrisette Michelle was my favorite on the entire album for many reasons. First off I can really relate to what he is talking about. For years back in my D.C. days all I ever wanted was to talk to high yellow, caramel type of guys. Anyone darker then me got no type of love. Insecure about my complexion, I felt the lighter you are the more attention you got. Back then it seem like lighter girls got all the fine guys and got all the attention. So that was one reason dark guys kinda were off the market for me. Not only that, lighter guys showed me all the love in the world, which was odd, but they did. I was not a child that came from a home where name brand was popular. So Kmart, AMES (A D.C. store) and Salvation Army were my store labels. Being and chilling with people who had it like that made it even worse for me. I had to wear what I had and not complain. Then my brother started to work and since guy cloths was in, stealing his sneakers was my number one priority. To step up on my own I got a little job at my mothers Aunt's doctor's office, not to mention my daddy started to give me things and my other Brother (R.I.P) gave me things as well. No one could say shit to me after that. Light guys seem to be even easier to get, it was to the point I got what I want from their ass and moved the hell on. No explanation, no reason, not even a good buy! WHY? They thought they was all that and could not get hurt. So I felt I needed to prove them wrong.
Now almost 30, I LOVE my complexion and would not change it for nothing in the world. I am living a good life and can fetch for myself. It came to my surprise that I was using these dudes just because I was unhappy with who I was within. After growing confidence within my self I let the light thing go. I even married a man that is as dark as me. Not to mention most of the light guys ended up with so much kids and so many baby mamas! I am truly happy that I found myself and love the skin that I live in!!!
One day Wale will let me know if he still feels this way, because I don't!!!
[Verse 1:] [Wale] Chip on my shoulder Big enough to feed Cambodia See, I never fit into they quotas Sneakers wasn't fitting and my knees needed lotion Long before I knew the significance of a comb I roam like phone with no vocal reception Immigrant parents had me feeling like a step-kid And black Americans never did accept me That's why I thrive so much, win and respect dig I never fit in with them light skins I felt the lighter they was the better that they life is So I resented them and they resented me Cheated on light-skinned Dominique when we was seventeen I figured I'd hurt her, she'd evidently hurt me, and all women who had light features See, I never let a light broad hurt me That's why I strike first and the first cut's deep
[Chorus] All my light skinned girls to my dark skin brothers Shades doesn't matter heart makes the lover Boy you're so beautiful boy you're so beautiful shades doesn't matter heart makes the lover Boy (beautiful caramel), Boy (beautiful coffeepot) Boy (Beautiful chocolate) Boy (Beautiful toffee) Boy (Beautiful pecan) Boy (beautiful licorice) (boy you're so beautiful)
[Verse 2:] Just another knotty head nigga Hoping Wes Snipes make my life a bit different In middle school, I had the right to be timid I had beautiful words but girls never listened Listen, blacker the berry, sweeter the product Well, I'm fruit punch concentrate and they water Walk into my room thinking how to make moves Ain't thinking like a student but how Ice-T do it Light dudes have the girls looking there all year It's not fair, the ones with the good hair Couldn't adapt to naps, I wavecap they naps and slept on me Man, I hate black Skin tone, I wish I could take it back Or rearrange my status, maybe if I was khaki Associating light skin with classy The menstrual show showed and me, that was not me
[Chorus]
[Verse 3:] They say black is beautiful But ask them beautiful light girls if its black they attract to usually What if Barack skin was all black, truthfully? Would he be a candidate or just a black in community? Because black dudes tend to lack unity And them blacker girls ain't on the tube, usually Right now, at 23, I ain't mad at them reds no more But for long time I had gone cold Blindfolded my own insecurity was holding me back to reds, I ain't know how to act They would get the cold shoulder and know it was an act A defense mechanism what I thought that I lacked Confidence
John Legend girlfriend/model Chrissy Teigen and their dog gives New York Magazine an exclusive tour of their East Village home in NYC!! Can you say "FLY"!! I love the the decor and design of the apartment shown in the photo's. My favorite is the piano viewing the city. Gotta love NY when it comes to apartments like this!!!
Alicia Keys comes back with her first track since given birth to her son Egypt Daoud Dean.
“Speechless,” a love song dedicated to Egypt, opens with the singer-songwriter saying, “This little guy takes my breath away.”
This track will not be featured on any upcoming album, but it is still a classic Keys song that makes you love and feel the meaning of real music. She lays down her soulful vocals as it samples Kanye West’s song “Devil in A Dress.”
| Produced By: Alicia Keys / Swizz Beatz Label: J Records
Swizz Beatz's latest monster Monday comes with some soul as wife Alicia Keys teams with rapper Eve for "Speechless."
I found out today that your friend and mine, Natalie Portman is engaged and pregnant.
While I wish her all the best, it's hard when all the people you've been holding a flame for fall for other people, and get on with life. First it was Winnie from The Wonder Years and now Natalie.
What's a man to do?
It's times like this when we need James Blunt to sing for our hearts. Sing it for me tonight Blunty:
I went to see Tron Legacy today with my Auntie. It was pretty awesome. It looked great. The 3D was as good as or better than Avatar. It wasn't obtrusive at all.
The opening credits were almost worth the price of the ticket along. But I love good opening credits. And what totally was worth the price of the ticket was the music by Daft Punk. It was great. The film could be an extended Daft Punk film clip. Plus it was nice to see their cameo.
The story was pretty silly. But it wasn't pretentious (unlike Avatar), it was just trying to be a whole lot of fun with a lot of cool stuff. And that it was.
